New Year Thoughts Take one.
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Not gonna lie man January was a heavy month, the amount of days I’ll sit at work and wondering why the day is going so slow ā. The weather messing with my mood, the mood messing with my health and performance.
I decided to zoop my hair off šš½āāļø again and roll with a half-on beanie look. Like my beanie I’ve gone back to wearing a lot more black. Winehouse.
He's since lost it by the way, this yute
But my hair is brown and my favourite colour is navy blue. Colleague was feeling the hipster style. Oleku.
Wasn’t growing the way I wanted it to any ways. This grind never stops though.
But maybe I think too much
Maybe I close my eyes and I dream too much
I just can’t be gullible… I’ve seen too much
But I don’t wanna lose you though ’cause you mean too much
These kind of lyrics relate to me because I’m an ENFP.
I may know what that is lad, but explain it for the people dem
It’s a nice way of saying I’m curious, observant, loads of ideas which can often lead to overthinking, and in some times, stress. You can read a much more detailed analysis of an ENFP in the description.
This year something that I really want to do above everything is to actually read the whole bible. I’ve written it down on a paper, and typed it in my notes for the last decade or so and I couldn’t procrastinate any longer on it.
I’ve got dreams, got plans, got goals. Time to get active bro. – Still Shadey.
As I’m working through several bible plans I’m beginning to figure out the plans God has in store for me. And as I tackle the BIOY app I’m actually perplexed at some of the stuff I knew or should’ve known by now.
Jacob having 2 wives and 4 baby mamas casually, or the ruthless dramas of killings you’d only catch on Netflix. I’m learning sha.
And to be brutally honest, you no longer need a *DADUMMM* subscription to see some messed up things going on in this world. Series are now reflecting real life even more – the less fictional.
Taking time to pray for those around me rather than just a hashtag has felt a lot more rewarding.
I was however hit in the feels when I saw this verse:
A wicked and adulterous generation seeks after a sign, and no sign shall be given to it except the sign of the prophet Jonah. – Matty Six Four
For time I’ve been moving like DMX 
, not noticing I’m unconsciously trying to bargain with God. For example, people used to ask me about girls and I’d create this lit response by saying:
“I’m waiting for a gold light to just show on her… like whoop, there it is. That’s my wife.”
It didn’t even work fam.
I’m trying to understand every single thing and store it as knowledge, to use it as a source of power. But the problem with doing that is you end up relying on it. All me. And it didn’t get me far. It just got me frustrated.
You noticed how the rich, the smart, the piff (yes I’m bringing it back) have got everything they want but still end up wanting? Needing?
I needed a renewal of the mind.
I lean not on my own understanding, my life is in the hands of the maker of heaven – Timbo.
Even though I’ve been spending more time with God so far this year, the challenges I face feel even greater. The devil sees I’m making movements and he’s dashing in spanners to throw me off my daily bread routine. š
So I was trying to understand how to defeat the Bowser 
in my life, worrying about pixels by relying on worldly signals… when I was sleeping on the game creator. The one I’ve dedicated myself to get to know more this year.
So I take a step back like Harden and read the book of James, testing mic one two three.š¤
I bet y'all missed that line ā©ā©
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.
I’m learning to consistently:
- Pray
- Pattern
- Apply Patience
It’s hard 
from where I stand currently but I’m trusting God will continue to see me through. We have free-will yet our life isn’t our own, and the moment I remember that the easier it was for me to get back on track. and I pray you’ll all be able to come through every barrier the world has set you.
AMENNN I RECEIVE ITTTTT
One thought that I don’t think I’ve expressed as of yet is to really thank you all for the tremendous support and love that you’ve shown since I’ve started the blog. Honestly you know who you are and you’re all legends.
Like legit, this was just me shooting my shot and seeing how it will go, so to know that people are inspired, or blessed or even just laugh or smile at my content shows God’s working in this.
Even people I don’t know personally, like this is all so special. Feel free to ask me a question about anything.
All thanks for the love and support I’m gassed up standing out the sunroof and I’m screaming JESUS LIVES JESUS LIVES NONE OF THEM FLEX LIKE JESUS DOES š§
Good NYT. Stay Warm. Not to be confused with lukewarm.
P.S No you can't have my Netflix mate